elysiumdarkstone

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Inside Me by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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Inside Me

Everyday is a fresh start Wondering will I see the next morning I keep going even though the futures uncertain I think about it every day and fear day will bring life never guaranteed an easy ride but I keep booking seems I'm hurdling towards death when I'm not looking with questions left that I don't know and I'm feeling bad sometimes hate is the easiest out let the anger flow and forget all about the cancer growing inside me I wish I knew all the answers that I seek but I'm left always searching days drag on and I feel sick drained and empty nothing left to spare wasting away in this shell of a human body I call home no tears left to s

The Hard Truths by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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The Hard Truths

Don't shoot me in the back, I want to see it coming. I want to comprehend the moment before it all ends. I want to enjoy those last few breaths before my life is taken. I want to savor the end of this wonderful journey I have been on. I want to pity you for your inability to savor the time that you have. I want to thank you, I want to hate you, but most of all I want to save you. The anticipation is killing me, pull the trigger, pull the trigger and set me free from a world that has lost touch with itself, a world where the failure of others is entertainment, and nobody gives a shit if you live or die. Pull the trigger and let me fe

The masterpiece by elysiumdarkstone, literature

Just say when by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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Just say when

I'm calling you I know its too late but that doesn't mean I cant try one more time with every fiber of my soul to get you on the phone to say my goodbyes and find my way home Everyday is a struggle between logic and fear my addictions and vices can't get my head clear every bottle my savior each drink erasing my pain and that ten digit number preventing my life from going down the drain I thought the world was so perfect and that we would last forever but every moment I'm alone is another I remember in your arms my dreams shattered against the words I never wanted to hear but now its time to say goodbye six years too

Hallucinations by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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Hallucinations

I walked away but this wasn't the beginning of our story it was only the end as the twin suns set I wondered where I would go next as every dream was crushed and every memory shattered I left behind my intents with no reason to regret I kept my choices solely based on the feelings raging in my chest the distinct beat reminding me of that fated meeting on a night like any other lust and fear intermingling with lavender on the air as the rains misted down we parted but never left this place we found so perfect but the world denied us our desires and destroyed us inside and out the hues of faded innocence and scents of ind

Midnight rain by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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Midnight rain

and she said to me let go of all this pain and I said to her if I did i wouldn't be sane half a lifetime away as the years pass reflecting on those late night conversations and quips and witty repast my life is a mess and its like the sky won't fall and end this lifelong bad day as the world just shifts and sways like the trees I'm driving past focused on what could have been but wasn't or just didn't last and the day just won't be done and it's begun to rain and I'm screaming at the top of my lungs for the world to just make sense as if the bottom would fall out and I would fall with it slip away but it won't every day

One night stand, by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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One night stand,

You sit and you stare Acting like you care you say that you're different acting irreverent saying that you understand thinking that I'll concede to your demand your kidding yourself again because I'm not ready for this indifferent point of view I'm not ready to believe it's true I'm not ready for you to need me I'm bound to know that your indiscretions show your plans to play me for the fool you see I'm not so blind to your kind I know because I'm not ready for this indignant point of view I'm not ready to agree with you I'm not ready For you to see the real me You can't deny The hidden truths that I hold deep in

wonder by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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wonder

sitting here lazily gazing out the window watching the rain falling through the trees listening to the creek in my little piece of heaven in this little mountain town I'm sitting wondering what it all means waking up to the gentle breeze and the sweet smell of spring watching as the clouds loll by and the wind blows through the trees I just need a little more time to solve all these riddles and answer all these questions regarding my choices and life and when to say goodbye or when to hang on because times will get better when my decisions are made I watch the rain come pouring now like the tears down my cheeks I don't

phone call by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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phone call

Hello its me again i think that you forgot to call or maybe your phones off maybe you're busy but i just wanted to say hi, hello how are you what's new I'll try again tomorrow hey just calling back your phone must be off or your doing something important but i felt I should see what's up I thought we hit it off at the party the other night but maybe I am wrong call me back talk to you later ..... you could call i don't bite did I scare you off? i thought we clicked that we found a common ground but you don't call back I guess I was wrong I won't call back See you around ..... I'm sorry I saw it in the news I

deep end by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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deep end

sitting on this precipice hoping that this all just a dream are we denying who we have come to be? everyday its the same get up and get dressed and head off to work or to school just to fend for ourselves in a world that just hates to admit its beyond saving to deny us our fates inside it hurts just to know that my whole lifes a lie based in a fantasy of living the the life that's expected of us 9 to 5 eat and then sleep does it matter which way that we accomplish this feat smile and nod like the sheep that we are holding onto a sanity perpetuated in conformity one foot in front of the other as the pace begins to inc

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Inside Me by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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The Hard Truths by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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The Hard Truths

The masterpiece by elysiumdarkstone, literature

Just say when by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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Just say when

Hallucinations by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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Hallucinations

Midnight rain by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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Midnight rain

One night stand, by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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phone call

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A return to my innocence by elysiumdarkstone, literature

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A return to my innocence

there are days that i walk again ways that i talk again indifferent to the choices i made there are nights where i cry again times when i die again apathetic to my own indecision there are monthes where im lost again years that im trapped again memories that i would never trade there are decades that wont begin again centuries never to occur again i still have time to heal within for everytime i cant see again ill never understand again for with every passing moment ive lost my innocence again left alone again condemned to repeat my pain again and again and again and again

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About elysiumdarkstone

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Artist // Hobbyist // Varied

United States
Deviant for 20 years
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I am a jaded person, I try so hard to focus but always lose sight. I am that friend who isn't always there when needed but when it comes to those moments when they are needed the most they are there. I let myself down more often that I let others down. I am a success and a failure. I am a sinner and a saint. I am the hero who wishes he was a villain. I am the one who dies when nobody has to. I am the savior who showed up to late. The love of your life after you have already found happiness. I am the darkness that feeds on your soul to put the light in your life. I am worthless............

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Personal Quote: Life is fragile

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Hildebrandt Brothers

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What dreams may come

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Mayfield Heights, this day and age, a change of pace, time

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Edgar Allen Poe

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Resident Evil

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elysiumdarkstone

Jan 6, 2014

Devious Journal Entry

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Diagnosed with stage three esophageal cancer in April. Had surgery in July. It spread to my liver and pancreas, now stage 4 and fighting for my life. Figures.....

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elysiumdarkstone

Feb 20, 2010

A little early

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Its been a long time since I started this account, almost six years now. I post every once and a while. Have a few watchers. Life just took me off one day, and I haven't been able to catch up. Since I started this account I have graduated college, am about to graduate law school, and been on a myriad of other journeys. I have loved and lost and loved again, I have lost friends and made new ones. I have lost family member, who will never be forgotten. I have learned lessons I will never forget, made memories to last me a lifetime, and seen things I will probably never see again. And life goes on. I've decided that perhaps it is time for the